Not As Planned

I didn't run outside yesterday.  I started out and there was something scary happening behind our house.  Sounded like dogs (probably coyotes) and birds (probably wild turkeys) and some other animal noise.  I gave it a few minutes and a few minutes again -- it was still happening.  I don't want to be hunted (!!)  Boxed inside instead.

Later this morning I'll head to the trail.

The Course in Miracles was a bit of a bust as well.  It was super packed with people new to me, but not new to the group.  The circle became a game of who could tell a more pathetic story of "someone" they know/knew ... neighbor's husband with Parkinson's, a friend from 20 years ago who died tragically, cousin who is depressed, etc.  People weren't telling to show a lesson, just talking to talk.

One of the 30 year members commented that the lesson was positive, but the group was bringing it down to "human" negativity.  No one listened.  The group leader tried to redirect a few times without success.  The time ran over (since people wouldn't stop talking) -- I left.  Couldn't take one more person's story about gloom and doom -- that happened long ago or something they saw on the NEWS.  For heaven's sake -- why?!?

Guess every week can't be a home run.  I think this was another exception kind of week -- based on the old-timers reactions (they didn't participate in gloomy tell-all).  There is value to talking about things that are upsetting and hurting, but then there's a shocking telling group mentality.

Even the first week when there was an outburst of a member (who was back this week for the first time), the gloom didn't take over.

Took me a bit to shake that experience.  I'm working on this energy thing and it was a good example of an energy drain.

Now for some riveting updates on PACKING!  LOL.

I "brain" packed yesterday and prepped the dog stuff.  Not as much as I wanted to do, but I decided today I can actually pack (not a test run) so best to wait for today.  Believe it or not, 2 days to get ready for a trip is fine.

Weather in Italy continues to warm up and that solidified my clothes packing thoughts.  Back to the summer skirts I was trying to avoid wearing for the 8th year.  Can't be done.  They are perfect for warmer weather.  I'll take jeans and blouses too.  Weather is way too warm for boots, sweaters, etc.  COMFORT is king (or queen).

Tomorrow should be some updates on my new sound machine, downloaded books and packing (hah) -- unless I get totally over run and have no time (hello, nerves).  Later gators.