Coaching Call and Candle Making

I had nothing planned to say on the coaching call so I mentioned how bone tired I was on Tuesday after my evening Monday.  Asked how it could be since I was careful about self-care, edited my calendar, etc.

Holly asked about the evening (how I felt about the people there and what we talked about) and I told her the conversation was heavy.  The group had some seriously tragic stuff happen (including one of the doc's son was killed).  I couldn't stop thinking about all the people involved in super hard life stuff.

She said THAT is what zapped my energy.  Empathic tendencies.  I've been told this before -- hear something sad and take that energy on (even though I know it's not about me).  She's giving me some resources to explore (guided meditation and a book).

We talked a lot about it and it seems to fit.  It wasn't about the busy 2 weeks -- it was about that night.  (It CAN be about "busy," but I don't think that was the issue this time.)  Somehow this feels like a relief to know what happened.  I was really confused about the level of exhaustion I felt on Tuesday -- exhaustion that wasn't relieved at all by any of my usual fixes.  This makes sense.

More on this as I learn more.  It's a bit woo woo but after talking about it, I can see this explains certain times really well (my days of "work hangovers" and some family visits, etc.).

Last night was my last evening commitment before our trip next week.  Neighborhood candle making.  I use that term loosely.  They did the work -- cut, sanded wine bottles, all the supplies (they used to sell candles).  We picked our holders, chose the scent and did an easy assembly.  It was a great night.  Fun ladies, fun conversation, good/drinks and my FAVORITE dogs in the neighborhood (finally got to pet them -- adorable little old gals).





Today is a recovery day with a few errands intermixed.  Hubby is golfing (although it's only going to be for a couple of hours).  I might run the trail a little later this morning (I slept in -- late night yesterday).  If I don't run, then I'll box.  Totally winging my workout and doing what I feel like in the moment.

Hitting a long meditation today -- focusing on mental recovery too.  Almost a crash kind of day -- but healthy crashing (not the eat junk and stay in PJs crashing).  Later gators.