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Guess what??

I ordered a size up because I like pjs big and sometimes they run small.  These are really, really big though -- especially the top.  Oh well.  I still LOVE them.  Maybe they'll shrink a bit (I'm taking them off before bed and washing them).  I think a smaller size would still have an odd fitting top -- something about the proportions are different -- especially in the shoulders.

Anyway ...

Back to a night of peeing and taking dogs out.  Not as bad as the first night, but a turn-around in progress.  Up three times and still accidents - ugh! We're finally warm enough again for real walks.  I'll see if that helps.  I think it's Noelle's large evening dose of steroids contributing to the frequency.

I kicked the proverbial butt yesterday on my to-do list.  CE credits done, uploaded to reporting agency, application for renewal sent.  Bam.  Now waiting.  I also got my passport renewal stuff ready and am going for the picture today.  Clearing some big, yucky stuff off my plate!!

Today is a rest workout day, CVS for my picture and Trader Joe's.  I'm doing some training for Releash this afternoon.  Simple day.

I'm feeling stronger with my promise to myself.  Three good quality days in the bank.  The best part?? I have nothing major to derail me.  My pattern these last few months was to get back on track just in time for a major something (holiday, trip, etc) and then struggle before I tried to get back again.  Over and over.  I have some social stuff in January, but I'm sticking to my promise.  It's really important since I'm on the edge of a wardrobe disaster (as in my clothes might burst!).  I don't want to buy new clothes because of crappy, unhealthy gluttony.

I'm also on the brink of progress.  A HUGE motivation for ME is feeling good in the morning.  And feeling good includes being able to get dressed in real clothes (not just sweats)!! Searching my closet for something to wear that possibility fits, that hides the poor choices, that feels semi-comfortable ... it puts me right back to how I felt before I lost the weight.  It's a HORRIBLE feeling for ME.  Any whiff of that feeling and I panic ... doesn't matter what size.  I know what my body looks like when I'm respecting it.  It doesn't look like that right now.

Keeping my promise today -- come hell or high water.  Later gators.