Barely.
I've taken a f*&K is attitude this week and it shows in every aspect. Low energy, low motivation, pants tight, face bloated, general blahs.
The good news is I think I'm just about finished with it. I don't even want to exercise. I canceled my classes this week and chose some rather lame home workouts. Today needs to be one of them.
Come on girly -- get yourself together.
Today's agenda is simple. Workout and clean my VERY dirty house. That will complete the day. I paid bills and got some other things in order this week so when the house is clean my little world should feel more normal.
I have a refrigerator full of good food choices. I just need to make the good choices. This week it was easier said than done.
As much as I wish all was hunky dory today, there are times when the f*&K attitude feels good. I did what I wanted. Period. No effort, no guilt -- it was nice ... for a few days. Now the consequences are setting in -- time to change it.
Part of my attitude has been a little discouragement from my new body efforts. I've put on muscle. I'm noticeable stronger. And I look crappy. All the vacation pictures showed it. I'm pretty sure that's where the attitude came from. I'm pissed and disappointed in the results. I have to do some thinking. I need a better balance between weight lifting and cardio. I want a slimmer look with a bit of strength mixed in. My stomach is really big (not counting this week, because duh) and I don't know why. With some bum muscle added, nothing hangs well. So much effort, crappy results.
Kids are up so I'm going to sign-off. This will be my thoughts as I clean today. New plan needed. Modification, balance, change. Later gators.
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