Oh Monday, Hello My Friend

Hello, Monday. 

Am I over the mood? 

Yes and no. 

I decided to nix all workouts this weekend in the hope of healing some of the aches. It helped a bit. My neck is looser and my back feels good this morning. 

BUT ... I also fell face first into crappy eating and a big "don't give two f*&ks" attitude. Not a great choice. Not sure I'd do it any differently if I had the chance either. It was the relief of giving up for a couple of days that felt amazing in the moment. I did the bare minimum -- obligations only. Everything else was ditched. It would've been nice to rest in a healthier way, but I probably waited too long to force a rest and the solution wasn't pretty.

I'm still in a bit of a ditching mood this morning. 

Ditched a solo hike I planned. Still resting and recovering.

Ditched (said no) to a couple of social obligations -- waited until this morning to respond to late texts.

Put a strong boundary on other plans. 

I need to regroup. 

I think the answer to balancing lies somewhere in two areas.

(1) Priorities. What do I actually want? What is MOST important to me? There isn't time for everything at full effort. 

(2) Fear related to losing things that I've intentionally and diligently worked to have in my life. Without that full effort, can it still be a valuable part of my life? Did I grow these things only to give them up? Will people give up on me if I'm not showing up at full effort?

I'm exploring both of these more. 

There's a coaching call on Thursday I might be able to attend -- need to clarify if it's open coaching or topic specific. It would also interfere with a solo hike I planned, but I'll give it some thought. I wish the schedule was set further in advance so I could plan more regularly.

Enjoy my little dog with his HUMONGOUS attitude. This feels about right for today.

He wanted a bone hahahaha!

Have a great start to the week.

Later gators.