Watch Out

I'm rambling this morning. I'm sad and stressed and can't find my usual relief paths. Read at your own risk -- you've been warned lol :)

I decided to stop resisting life this week. I have no choice. Things are changing left, right, sideways. Trying to plan or control outcomes is not working. Resisting is making it harder (of course).

Every direction is stress. Every phone call is stress. Every text is stress. You get the idea. 

My "fun, de-stressor" stuff is getting canceled. I'm left to feel the feelings, or, in my case, eat my feelings. Dang wedding cake started me on the sweets highway. Getting off today. Sugar is absolutely the worst thing I can do for stress. Nice in the moment and then messes with sleep, energy, mood. Not my best decision.

Focusing on some good things (hopefully). Power came back on in Asheville last night. Hubby will drive there tomorrow to check on the house, reset stuff, bring supplies to neighbors, etc. Fingers crossed for a smooth, safe trip. 

Today I'm having a HBD lunch with my DIL and grandson and then babysitting for the afternoon. I'm looking forward to the day (but timing isn't great again because we're trying to get ready for Asheville and I'm going over in the morning which nixed my park plans). These plans were a last minute change and I didn't want to say no because I'll love spending the day with them.

This is where the not resisting comes in. I planned to go to the park because a run/walk outside is a mood boost for me (and I need it), but it's not going to work now (not enough time between sun up and leave time). Letting it go -- Peloton will be good enough. I have a lot to do today and I'll be late getting home -- it's okay, everything will get done. Focus on this nice day with family instead.

I'm trying to not get caught up in every else's issues too. There are a lot of them. 

I'm trying to not focus so hard on the negative details, on things going wrong. There is a lot going well, but my mind loves a drama.

I'll finish this ramble with 2 pictures. Heartbreak for Asheville and a little quirky moment. 

Inside of one of my regular antique markets
in Asheville. River flooded the entire area.

New way to cut a sandwich
and I'm here for it.

Mixing the good with the heartbreak with the normal with the moving forward. Again, I know how lucky I am and I have perspective and I still have some hard feelings too.

We're waiting to hear how family and friends in Florida faired overnight from Milton. Hopefully, good news. A few evacuated and those who stayed are inland. Hope you are safe and well. Later gators.