New Future Self Stuff

I did most of my things yesterday (pushed plants to today though) and I'm feeling better this morning. Babysitting was hard on my back, but I love time with this sweet baby.

I have a stretch of 2 weeks of an extra full calendar (by my standards these days) that involves a lot of early mornings and a few late evenings. All curated by me so no one to blame but myself lol. A lot of this is in the name of "being her now." Leaning into another future self version. The initial lean is a little uncomfortable but also exciting.

It's a balance between pushing and letting things move organically. Push too much and it's overwhelming and not enjoyable. Let things happen organically and then may never actually happen.

The good news is everything is meant to be enjoyable -- and it feels enjoyable. The problem is my energy. It's still not where I'd like it. I'm starting to see some changes with the testosterone cream so hopefully good things on the horizon. 2 weeks for any changes. 6-8 weeks to come to level. I'm at week 3 tomorrow.

I'm adding things to my day that are part of this future self version's day. It's how she lives. What comes naturally. As I mentioned, the initial steps feel awkward and definitely not natural. The more I practice, the more natural it becomes. And if something doesn't end up being enjoyable, I'll make changes. This isn't a "should do" situation.

Anyway ... I finished this book yesterday. It's a cozy mystery and I expected more from it. Didn't get the feel of the English countryside or character development. I give it a C+ -- nothing special, but not bad either. Easy to finish in a couple of hours.

I have a hair appointment this morning so I'll get some time with a new book. I have one more library book checked out (and 2 waiting for pickup) but I'm not sure I want to read this one. I'll give it a go and if I don't love it after the hair appointment, it's a DNF. It's long AND LP with thin pages so you get the print from the other side showing. It seems irritating to the eye which is an odd reason to not be interested in the book, but that's the problem for me. The story needs to make me forget the bad printing for over 600 pages so I'm not particularly hopeful.

Lots of errands today and work on some projects for upcoming stuff. I'm also making stuffed bell peppers because I have a big batch from the garden. There's only so many you can eat on a salad.

Hope you have a good Tuesday. Later gators.