No closer on the court report -- worked all afternoon to find out EVERYTHING changed and it needs to be redone. And the changes for the family are upsetting to me. I have a meeting this afternoon with my supervisor and will start again.
We got a date for our friend's services -- not until summer. Phew. We have so many weekends that are obligated to things that would be difficult to change because they involve other people and travel plans. This is a conflict with a volunteer event, but that's okay. I was worried the service would be one of two weekends that we wouldn't change our plans.
This is a heavy week. So much sadness -- of course, the shit show from our government and the hate it spurs, but also personal. The volunteer position and the family crisis is upsetting and heartbreaking. I've worked with them for over 2 years. Our friend passing and his family in such grief is awful.
I don't have much on the calendar the rest of the week because we had planned to go to Asheville initially. I'm keeping it this way. I need space and time alone. Sometimes you need time with people to lift you up, but right now people and THEIR complaints, etc are irritating to me.
What I need is a good, hard cry, but it's not coming yet. Emotions about lots of things are piling on and eventually I'll hit a tipping point -- probably during meditation some morning.
I have home stuff to work on and that's the agenda for the next couple of days. Postcards to write for campaigns. Court report to write. Grow room fixes (lord help me). I'll add some nature and reading and fun too.
I'm going to do whatever I can to hold no early or late obligations. That didn't happen yesterday. I made an early appointment (dumb) and I had a late call for volunteering. Why do I do this to myself?
I think my hormones are off too. My estrogen was cut in half and hot flashes are back -- fun times. I feel off and a little light headed at times too.
I hope you have a good day and I'll take one too. Later gators.
