Thursday, May 7, 2026

Hello, Travel Anxiety

The hike worked out really well. It was overcast (and rained the last mile). I hiked half with my friend and half solo. I took a shorter route back because of the rain -- 8 miles (instead of 9). My back felt fine once I got upright from the car ride.

My friend gave me little jars she had leftover from an event. Little jars are one of my love languages. They're darling. She knows I like to give away jars with herbs and flowers.






Came home and walked to lunch with hubby. Another 2 miles on my feet. My back held, but every muscle, joint hurt by the end of the day. I think my testosterone is low again.

I have a fever blister. It's not huge, but it's in the painful stage. Probably pre-vacation anxiety. I've had this my entire life. As soon as I'm through security and at the gate it goes away. It's been a minute since I've gone on a big trip and I'm waking up in the middle of the night in anxiety panic. Keep reminding myself this is what happens and it doesn't mean anything.

Remember the 2 trips to Europe with shingles? Same thing. 

I'm in the phase where I'd give anything to NOT go. Every single blessed time this happens. I guess it's a bit extra this year (fever blister) since it's been a long time since I've taken a big trip. Why do I do this? Dang. Trying to add some "carefree and unbothered." The fever blister says hah, not working.



I went to bed early and slept in this morning. Excellent sleep stats and I can feel it. My body was screaming for recovery. No workout today -- not chancing my back with lifting and my legs need a rest day.




We are getting hella rain right now. Huge storms all night. Wish it wasn't so hard (doesn't soak in the ground as well), but happy for rain, happy we kept power. I staked all the summer loves in the garden so I think everything held up.

Little harvest from the final show from the shelling peas. Snow peas are still going. I HATE frozen peas and I LOVE fresh peas. Light blanch in the shell, salt ... delicious. The peas won't last long in the coming heat in a full sun garden. 






I started elements of packing. Got the electronics ready yesterday. Chargers, noise machine, headphones, etc. 

I also picked books -- 3 are coming with me. Is this enough? If I can fit a fourth I might. The plane ride is good for at least one book. That leaves 2 books for 9 days and flight home (overnight so I won't read as much). Doesn't seem like enough, but sometimes I don't end up reading as much. Decisions, decisions. 

Today is beachwear and toiletries. That means trying on a swimsuits and coverups. 
It's also plan the days now that we are closer with the weather, etc. 

Starting early and little at a time does wonders. I can't actually PACK until the last day, but it helps to have everything ready to go. It also calms some of the anxiety.


I have a full, full day ... but a slow roll morning. That makes such a difference. It's my last slow roll until we are in Kauai and I'm enjoying every bit of it this morning.

Hope you're having a good week. Later gators. 

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