Friday Vibes

Packing is going well.

Prep for a casual dinner with friends is underway.

Free concert under the trees tonight with beautiful weather. 

Not bad. 

Yes, still a vacation wreck, but I'm trying.

I spent the evening at a political protest yesterday. Made a quick sign, sported a political shirt, and spent hours sign waving, hanging with friends and others. The timing wasn't ideal, but I was glad to participate. 

A little plant moment. The plant with flowers is NOT the plant that flowers. The vining plant attached to her neighbor and bloomed her flowers next door. Now if that's not the definition of being a good neighbor, I don't know what is.

I've been trying to figure out what the pre-vacation anxiety and dread is about. I'm not afraid to travel or fly. I am afraid of the ocean up close, but I get this anxiety going to Europe too. I enjoy the vacations once I get to the gate -- never had a traumatic vacation.

I HATE to pack, but that's different from the dread I feel. 

I'm sad my dog is sad, but he's staying at a house, sleeping in her bed, and is totally pampered.

Something about the length of time being away. Longer flights mean longer vacations. I'm not flying to Hawaii or Europe for a long weekend. 

Leaving the safety and security of home and routine? Maybe. Shorter trips mean I return to that security more quickly and therefore much less pre-trip dread? Maybe. 

I guess it could be the combination of all of it. 

I don't know if I'll ever understand it. It's good that it goes away and doesn't ruin the trip, but I hate the lead up -- waking up in the night feeling a panic. Dread every time I think about going. Wishing the trip would get canceled. Add in the "work" of leaving and it's not fun. 

I keep telling myself, you're not vacationing again until the fall. You have all summer without vacations. Focus on that.

 

Seriously, what's wrong with me?!?! THIS IS A VACATION for crying out loud. 

Anyway, best get moving to pick from the garden for the salad tonight (greens, peas, radishes). This is a super casual entertaining dinner with friends before the concert. It totally fits the "carefree and unbothered" vibe of summer (after I get back from this "dreadful" vacation hahaha). 

Have a good one! Later gators.