Adventure?!?!

This is some *extra* meandering thoughts this morning. 

(Very quick thoughts because I have to leave at 6 o'clock to water my son's garden.)

I hiked with the same hike leader yesterday and a couple of the same women. During the hike, the hike leader turned to me and said I should come on a travel week with the club. She's leading a group of women in Slovenia next summer and thinks I'd love it -- including the people who are planning to go so far. 

What?!?! It sounds amazing and VERY, VERY out of my comfort zone. 

No time for specifics this morning, but things like sharing a room, no a/c (but elevation will be cold on the hikes), hiking 6 days, one ridge-line hike. 

There are some hurdles. 

First, I need to be quick on the sign-ups because it will fill lightening fast. 

Timing -- might be over hubby's 60th birthday.

Fear -- I have tons of it. 

And this could be amazing. Traveling with experienced travel hikers. Seeing the beautiful country (it boarders Italy and Austria). Trip is fully organized and planned. I just pay and show up. 

What this got me thinking about last night is I'm still doing that thing where I'm clinging to something that maybe doesn't work anymore for me (Tuesday group, looking at you) and ignoring what's in front of me. 

Something about "back to basics" is wanting people in my life who inspire, motivate, encourage. I also want to put my time and energy into people who appreciate it. Sometimes I feel like I "force" people into doing things. Not sure if it's me or them -- but the interest is low on their part and that might be why things get canceled or fade or become a shadow of the original plans. I bark up the wrong trees and bark for too long. I try to lead people who don't want to be led. 

I sort of think it's because it's hard to find people who have that level of interests or are that interesting. That feels like a judgement or a snub -- it's not meant to be completely. I respect who people are and what works for them. I know "life" is redundant and filled with regular obligations. It's just very easy to find sort of dull people and much harder to find people who will say yes to a hiking trip in Slovenia. 

I often am and have been that dull person. That's a growth I'm working on. Problem is, it's hard to find those kind of people who will bring you along too. 

All this to say, if I can get on the hike trip, I'm going. 

I'm going to start finding that adventurer in me (safely, of course ... I'm still a chicken-shit). 

I'm going to put an effort into knowing people who are interesting and inspiring. 

I'm going to appreciate when they invite me into their circle a little. 

Maybe this works out, maybe it doesn't, but I want to be the person who gives it a go and sees where that takes me. 

I'm tired of saying "I can't this and that." 

What if I can? 

Especially with the random, rather dumb limits I put on myself. 

What if it's no big deal to share a room on a hike adventure? 

What if it's totally worth the adventure to be a bit uncomfortable?

What if I learn something about myself, stretch, and grow?

Thoughts for this Monday. Off to change for the itty, bitty hike (my back is glad it's short, but my morning routine says this is not worth it). Driving to my son's to tend garden. Driving home to meet at the trailhead. I might even drive the 1/4 mile (shock and awe) because the timing will be tight. 

The things I do for commitment to what I said I would do. I don't want to change this about myself, but I need to be smarter on what I commit to. 

Have a good one. Later gators.