Eeek, A Birthday Mood

I'm in a bit of an ungrateful mood this morning. I know it's sort of my fault and I know it's JUST a temporary mood. 

The week seems to have gotten away from me. Where did my downtime, reset, reflection time go?

I have a lot of birthday plans this week and I'm very grateful to have so many people in my life who want to celebrate my birthday -- I feel this and it feels good. 

Here's the mood ...

I said yes to some changes that are making the quiet bits difficult. I didn't feel like I could say no since these plans are people celebrating with me. If I had all the facts (so to speak) before I originally said yes, I would've made different decisions. 

Then the add-ons of normal life interrupting. Duke threw up 3 times again this morning. Hubby called me at 5:30 because he's in the UK and "knew I'd be up." 

I'm trying to have a bit of a morning before breakfast with my cancel friend that WAS a lunch and got shifted. Now I have a very rushed morning and the long birthday meditation is out the window -- no time the rest of the week. 

Could I change some of my plans until afternoon? 

Not really.

Can't garden in the heat of the day because it stresses the plants.

Meditation in the afternoon doesn't hit the same for me.

Workout, dog walk -- all need to be early. 

Even if I can change some things around ... I don't want to and that's what's frustrating me. 

I don't want to!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Said with a total tantrum vibe.)

My friend shifted lunch to breakfast to accommodate HER schedule and in the process MY schedule got messed up this morning. 

And I agreed to it. 

And it will be fine.

And I'll have a nice time.

But ... ugh.

Guess I'm more frustrated with myself. I don't mind a full, energetic day at all, but I LOVE slow roll mornings with my routine and quiet evenings. I thought I had that protected this week. I have some soul searching to figure out how to do this better or shift my perspective. 

In other news ...

I did a practice watercolor picture ahead of a larger one for a wall frame in my bedroom. It's okay (not that the bigger one will be a masterpiece hah). That's why it's a practice on a small sheet. The plan is a bunch of little birds all over 9x12 with music notes floating around. 

Color isn't quite right. I'll add different shaped birds too. I wanted to start the bigger picture yesterday but my plans changed and I ran out of time.

Painting is the one thing that I can easily do anytime. I usually prefer afternoons so maybe today. Watercolor is at least a 2 day process so it can dry. 

Okay, that's all for today. I have to get going for a quick garden time, workout, and dog walk. I'm trying to change up this mood and bring in a different perspective. Wish me luck. Later gators.