I feel like I haven't had a "therapy" rant for a bit. Here's some (probably boring) thoughts this morning.
This week is FULL of life stuff in the best way. Family, friends, hikes, 5K with Duke the Dog, great weather, etc. Here comes the "but" ...
I'm overwhelmed. Quiet time and quiet things have been missing for a few weeks. Sure, I HAVE time, but it's not when I can enjoy said things. Later in the evening -- too tired. Time in the afternoon -- interrupted by hubby, dogs, etc. I count on morning time and morning time is sorely missing.
I need a slow-role day or two. Not the sofa-slug kind, the productive in a quiet way kind. Long meditation (instead of 5 minutes, maybe), rock painting (hits that meditative creativity), daydreaming about future-self ideas -- you get the idea.
Some of the frustration comes when I set aside this time and it gets taken back. Hubby cancels golf and is home interrupting and interrupting. Cleaning crew changes day and time last minute. Friend asks a favor. I add something to the calendar because I think it's more important than this quiet space.
Another frustration is I don't have a private area in this house. When I'm painting rocks or whatever, interrupting that flow seems to cancel out the reparative feeling. I turn phone off, shut doors and it doesn't work. Hubby actually interrupted to give me my phone and tell me I got a text. I left the phone in another room on purpose so I got doubly interrupted by trying to not be interrupted. He doesn't seem to understand that I really, really need to be left alone at times.
I guess I say this because I thought I'd get a little space after the trip -- this week was relatively wide open and, bam, it's full to the brim. As I said, all good (or mostly good). A lot of it by my own choice (family is in town this week). And I'm ready to scream.
Where is the balance?? I can't seem to get it right. I know I need some restorative time after being "together" all week and I thought I could get it this week. This country is a shit-show and that stress needs some counteracting too.
Remember I had coaching that said the byproduct of a well lived life is feeling overwhelmed at times. Maybe remembering this is the answer. Overwhelm isn't a problem, just a reminder to make a little adjustment.
Hubby was suppose to be gone all morning playing pickle ball and it's pouring rain. Cleaning crew changed the time and day to this morning. I was suppose to have a chunk of time today and I don't. Hence the rant this morning.
Okay -- switching gears. Thanks for listening. Deep breath.
I got a couple of new bracelets from Etsy. Pride and inclusion all the way!!
Here's my new window frog from a cute store in Ogunquit, ME.
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| Upper left window. Maybe hard to see. |
There used to be a "snake" rock display on the trail next to my house. Painted snake head and tail and a very long in-between with happy rocks. I think a storm took it out. I pass it regularly and someone from the hiking club usually comments about missing the rock display. "Someone should bring it back." Um, duh. I paint rocks. Why not me? I messaged the city and asked. They said yes. I have a plan ... stay tuned. It's going to be in the form of gatherings with a purpose -- double win.
I have a lot of fun, meaningful, connection ideas -- just need to make time to execute them. The Priya Parker course is fantastic (Group Life) and motivates and inspires me at every turn.
I joined a local advocacy group and I signed up to attend 2 upcoming events. Getting involved, getting educated -- starts local.
Hubby and I funded a bookclub for boys at a Title One elementary school. Great teacher with a great idea to get boys who struggle with reading excited about reading. I got a photo of their first meeting and the boys looked so happy. Reading and the joy of reading is a lifelong pleasure and necessity. Little things make a difference. It's such a rebound happiness to help a good people wanting to make a difference.
That's enough of a ramble this morning. It's plant watering day again, oh boy. Putting an audio library book on and getting to it. More on books soon. I have a lot to share. I'll do a full chat about it.
Have a good day. I'm grateful for the much needed rain this morning. Wish it watered my indoor plants too hah. Later gators.
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